Throughout my whole life, I always knew I wanted to be an artist. It didn’t matter in what capacity I would be making art, just that I was making it. In the recent past, my art lost some of its personal meaning, and just became assignment driven work. This semester, I wanted to use the process of making to my advantage, and find my old spirit for making. I also wanted to bring together my process and my dream of becoming an art therapist - so I embarked on a journey of self-therapization to find or regain a more self-possessed and confident, healthy approach to art making. Through writing/journaling, sketching, and embroidering, I found my zen. I chose embroidery because it’s a skill I’ve had since childhood but never really explored. The motion of embroidery is calming, because you can get lost in it. While embroidering my hands would go to autopilot and I would find myself in a state of flow, something that I have been chasing with little success since my teenage years. Some of the themes that have popped up for me have been experiences while studying at Pratt and my self-image. Since starting my thesis I have learned a lot about myself, and I hope I can transfer my newfound peace and knowledge onto friends, family, and (hopefully) future patients.